Sunlight-Colored Roses

This weekend was completely painful. We put Princess to sleep on Friday afternoon. We had planned a trip for the long weekend. We went to Lawton, OK, and it was a cute place. But we were silent most of the time.

I drove straight to the vet’s office after work where I met him. He had gone between vets all day getting her an ultrasound, etc. That morning we felt something was wrong with her, and suddenly we were having to put her to sleep. Her lungs were filled with fluid, her heart and liver had failed, and she had tumors on her heart and lungs.

We were standing in the sunlight in the parking lot. He held her, and I was shocked. It seems like I remember every second that followed that.

We took the dogs to Lawton, and they did well. It was unbelievably hot. We hiked a little, viewed buffaloes, and ate incredible Korean foods (there are 9 Korean restaurants in this small town). On the way up we did a wine-tasting and bought a bottle of wine. On the way home we stopped at a stand and bought Amish butter and cheese.

I don’t seem capable of doing anything except editing my bjd wish list, planning outfits, and working on my makeup and skin care.

I feel like if I didn’t think, that I would be happy right now.

I had to wrap all my packages for eBay. It took about four hours to charge my motivation toward that. I hope I wrapped them well. I feel a couple of them look ugly. And Thursday I bought a pair of tall polyurethane boots. My first non-leather boots. I am so excited. They look like Josette’s.