Sunlight-Colored Roses

A sanctuary for dreams and shadows


I made some fudge, but it didn’t firm up. It seems like I didn’t cook it long enough. I think it’s more in the candy than the baked goods direction in terms of cooking. It’s good, though, in a bowl with a spoon. Definitely gave me quite a sugar rush.

I have been cleaning and organizing my jewelry. Next, I’m going to look at getting some different sizes of gold and silver chains so I can do some better layering of my pendants. I have come up with some good combinations. There are some pieces that have lost a stone or become more discolored than cleaning can fix, so I’m setting them to the side. This project ended up taking over several days, and I’ve got to finish up and move on.

I got a lava lamp yesterday, and Butterfly knocked it over literally just as it was starting to flow for the first time. I had always wanted one, and I sat there for like two hours waiting for it to start and looking at lava lamps on Instagram. I was actually so mad. When they get knocked over, they cloud up, and apparently it can take between years and never for them to clear up again. Butterfly was getting mad that I was paying attention to it and ignoring her. I think I felt so mad because I should have just turned it on, come downstairs and listened to my new record and to the ones Nathan got, too, and not gotten so fixated, and she would never have done that. And it would be fine. It is not as cloudy as it could be, but it is not as clear as coming out of the box.

I also got a bookshelf. I have books and bags just piled on the floor because there is no place to put them. The lava lamp will go on its own shelf where nothing will shake it ever again. I really like it and want a second one to go with my Kylo and other Star Wars items in the living room. One that is red and black.

I am so looking forward to getting my new doll Mason but I have had no motivation to sew for him. I feel so knee-deep in my jewelry and in organizing my office so I can actually use it. I just want to refresh my wardrobe and really use my jewelry. I got a plaid halter dress from eBay in the wash now. Can’t wait to see how it turns out. I just really want to refresh my look. My hair is getting long and with the indigo dye it is starting to really get to the length and color I want. I got that Gunne Sax dress for my birthday last year and little did I know I wouldn’t be wearing it to Austin or anywhere dressy or even leaving town for the next year. I guess cleaning my jewelry is a way for me to do something toward being out there in the world again. We registered for the vaccine, but I don’t think we’re going to get called until they go to the general public.

It’s like with the no power during the winter storm. We were able to stay alive so let someone else have it. We have no health problems and don’t have to work in-person so let someone who needs it have it. I don’t have to teach in-person until August. There is nothing fun to do here. It wouldn’t matter if I was vaccinated. I am not going to miss my place in line, but I am not fighting for the front. I am so tired of that culture here.