Good morning, I am here. If I am being honest, I haven’t updated because I’ve been trying to use Instagram, which is soul-crushing. I hate social media so much. I always go back to it hoping next time it will be different. Why is it just making a post on social media feels like I’ve Continue reading

Sitting here, about to work on editing my chapter. I’m just hoping my headache will go away a little more. Today, I feel bad. Headache. I slept poorly last night. Sadness is swamping me. It feels better than the emotional void, the sense that I have on some days that nothing can touch me anymore. Continue reading

I feel emotional and adrift. The song that has been going through my mind a lot is Evanescence’s “Lost in Paradise.” It feels ecstatic but also bewildering to be involved in the world again in a physical way. Course prep has been time-consuming. Today I had no time for anything else, which was unnerving, since Continue reading

This site is just cyberspace, but it also a place, and I feel it. This domain is a home. It’s a bridge to the past in the URL, and it’s the kind of project all my notes and journals have led me to do. An archive that carries these various materials from the past, while Continue reading

This feeling like I forgot something that I’m on the verge of remembering is often floating over my head, especially in the morning. It feels like I need to pick back up something I left behind. I think it’s just a feeling. There’s probably words for it in some other languages. It’s a pleasant feeling. Continue reading